Reliving the Past, Dreaming of the Future [Nessie]

[Jacob Black]

The sun was just rising and the paws vanished instantly into human hands and feet, though the boy kept running a few more feet. Once he got to the edge of the wood Jacob Black stopped and collected his belongings, covering parts that should not be seen in public. The now partially clothed werewolf wandered to the edge of the cliff hanging his feet over the edge and looked out at the landscape around him.

It was cold as per usual, though to him, it felt like Summer still, in the middle of winter the boy could be sitting in the middle of the snow with no shirt on and a pair of torn jean shorts and still be mildly warm. The rain had stopped for the time being, though he was sure it was far from being gone completely. Now he just sat there on the soggy ground doing what he does best- think.

It had been a while since he came to this spot, he really only ever came around to the Cliffs to think when something was really getting to him. The last most significant time that he could recall was when Bella had told him she was turning into a vampire; However in the past twenty six years Jake had come back to think over various other dilemmas in life- most of these involving either Bella Cullen, or her daughter Renesmee. Just the thought of his Nessie made him smile. Yes already the young girl had captured his heart, from the moment she laid her eyes on the wolf his heart was hers. She may have been a baby no more than a few hours old but he knew instantly that she was the one for him.

Of course he wasn't going to go and be a pedophile over the whole thing; Jacob Black was not creepy like that. He was still Bella Cullen's best friend, despite the fact that she now stunk like vampire all the time, he put up with it. Renesmee was not human, nor was she fully a vampire, but that didn't bother him, she still had a heartbeat, which was all he needed. So over the last many years he grew with her, guiding her and being the friend that she needed, the older brother if you will. And when Nessie finally decided a few years back that she was ready to fall in love with Jacob he had no idea how to react. He wanted it to be time, but she was so young still, it kind of threw him through a loop trying to understand that she did feel the way that he had felt all along. He had pushed those feelings aside for so long it took him time to finally release them, but when he did they were the happiest they had ever been.

Jacob and Renesmee were engaged when she was fifteen years old, though she looked eighteen physically. And they made it official when she did turn eighteen. Now she was twenty and they were planning the wedding. This thought alone made him nervous. This meant that he was going to be a husband, but not just any husband; he was going to be hers. This meant that Bella Cullen and her husband Edward Cullen, both dead and vampires- were going to be his mother and father in law. That in itself was something to get his head around, his best friend and almost lover so many years back was now an in law. The man that he hated with a passion for so long for taking the love of his life away from him- was now a good friend and father in law. The love of his life was no longer Bella, but her daughter Renesmee- his little Loch Ness Monster, the monster part he always laughed at. If anyone was a monster- it was Nessie's fiancé and family.

He was the happiest he had ever been, and he knew that she was happy too, after all they were going to be getting married soon. Renesmee was already moving her things into Jacob's house, and Jacob had taken back the role of Alpha in his pack. Leah Clearwater, now back to Beta- did a great job with the pack whilst he was gone, but he was looking forward to getting things back to the way it used to be.

They were now going to Forks School again, Carlisle and Esme Cullen were the parents, Edward and Isabella Cullen[ as she went by at school] were repeating grade twelve again, Rosalie and Emmett were trying to get jobs as normal people going by the names Rose Hale-Cullen and Emmett Cullen- newly weds. Alice and Jasper were playing the part of Cullen-Hale's and were a couple just moving in with one another, he had no idea what job they were going to attempt as they agreed not to go back to High school. Jacob and Nessie were going to High school as Vanessa Cullen and Jake Wolfe.

It was a lot to take in, and perhaps it was just overload, but Jake wanted a break, he just hoped Nessie was still okay about everything, she seemed a bit distant lately.

[Renesmee Cullen]

Nessie had actually spent the night at home for once, she rarely did that anymore, she'd pretty much moved in with Jacob when they'd moved back to Forks. Most of her stuff was there, but they hadn't made it official and wouldn't do so untill they were married which was being planned to take place soon, during the summer, Nessie wanted a summer wedding, outside. She wasn't sure if that was really what Jacob wanted, but he was happy to give Nessie what she wanted. Besides, they could always do it Jacobs way the next time around, because like Rose and Emmet and Alice and Jasper, it was always the same. The only reason that Nessie had stayed at 'home' was because Jacob had been on night patrols and she didn't like to be in the house on her own, seen as it wasn't officially her house yet. She'd woken early, unlike the vampires she actually needed sleep but she didn't need as much as humans, only a few hours was enough to keep her rested.

She was dressed in a pair of black jeans, a white hoody and white trainers, it wasn't exactly overly fashionable but she'd only planned a walk in the forest to meet Jacob and she still looked good. Then again she could walk around in old clothes and still look good, not that Alice would let her go anywhere in something like that. She was lucky to get to wear something twice with Alice around, she sometimes did it just to annoy her aunt, it amused her to see the reaction.

She walked slowly through the forest, not really paying much attention, there was nothing running through her mind, well, obviously she had things in her head, but with her brain capacity it was easy to clear her head without forgetting anything. She didn't know where she'd find Jacob but picking up his scent wouldn't be hard. She knew his scent better than she knew her own, it was a scent that she seemed to live for, she was walking, her eyes on the sky, her thoughts on High School, she wasn't pleased about having to go, and with a differen't name 'Vanessa' she wrinkled her nose, whose idea was that? That oh so familar scent suddenly caught her attention. With a smile on her lips she followed the scent towards the cliff and it suddenly got stronger as she noticed him in her sights.

With a quick movement she was suddenly right behind him, wrapping her arms around his broad chest "Miss me?"

[/color] she inquiered and she kissed his cheek. She knew she'd been kinda distant with him, she couldn't help it, she'd had so much on her mind and she hadn't known how to talk to him about was bothering her, even though she knew that she should. She shifted so she was now sitting next to Jacob, her hand moved to lace her fingers with his "How was patrol?"[/color] she asked, she knew she had nothing to worry about but she couldn't help worrying when Jacob was out late doing patrols. She snuggled up against his arm, letting his heat warm her, she'd been very distant lately, and she felt bad about it now and so was trying to make up for it.[/size][/center]

[Jacob Black]

Before Jake really could get to much more involved in his thoughts he felt a slight breeze blow by him followed instantaneously by the touch of two cold hands as they traced their way across his body before landing firmly on his chest. If it weren't for the slight chill that those hands gave him he would have been worried, but only one other person he knew of had that temperature. Almost too quickly a smirk graced his lips as he turned his head to the side welcoming the kiss that was then planted on it.

The whole thing still seemed surreal to him sometimes, that he a werewolf, would have been lucky enough to land a beautiful Hybrid Vampire like Renesmee Cullen, or for that matter, the fact that he would even dare to love a Cullen no matter how beautiful she was or not. After all that they had been through over the last twenty years he couldn't believe that finally they were going to make it official in the Summer. Here before him, in his hands, always by his side he had all he needed in the world, the girl who he looked after until she was ready to be his woman. The woman who would be his wife, the wife who would be there for all eternity. Nothing seemed wrong when Renesmee was around, and he just hoped that in her mind, things were flying at the speed of light like they were for him.

"Hey Babe." He said softly trying not to make it sound like he was surprised, he was in actual fact, but it was definitely a good surprise. "How could I not miss you?" He said rubbing his thumb over her hand leaning his head closer to hers. "You are all that is on my mind." That signature Black smirk soon faded into a full out grin, he brought himself close enough that he nearly intoxicated himself with that glorious scent, thank god she didn't stink like a vampire. Well she did when she was around her family, but when she was with him, she had a smell all her own and he loved it, there was no right way to describe it, but it was simply her and unique to herself. Leaning in a bit closer he returned her kiss with one of his own on her jaw bone, nothing special just a simple little peck before turning back to the scenary in front of him.

All previous thoughts that ailed his ageless mind were now gone, all that he saw was the girl beside him, even when he wasn't looking at her. If he closed his eyes he saw her, he felt her, breathed in that smell of her, tasted her sweet kiss, everything it was impossible to miss her. But how could he openly admit that? He couldn't, he had her with him all the time, of course being with him in person was better than a memory so he let it rest at that.

"Patrol was good, nothing out of the ordinary. Leah was good, Seth and Embry were happy to have me back, Quil seemed ecstatic, honestly I don’t think he liked the idea of Leah being in control. The thought of Quil's reaction just made him chuckle under his breath. He was really honestly happy to be home. He had missed everyone so much, and it was good to say that he was going to be making a life for himself here for along time coming. And if he had it his way, Renesmee was not going to be travelling to another life with her family any time soon.

[Renesmee Cullen]

She could sense the happiness that began to radiat off of him when she appeared and that in itself made her smile. It was funny how she could be in a foul mood and yet seeing his face, that alone could make her smile and make her feel like nothing was wrong. She'd been a bit off with him recently, she'd had so much on her mind and just hadn't known how to tell him or how to speak to him about so instead she'd avoided the subject and for awhile him as well, having claimed she wanted to spend some time with her family helping sort everything out for their move back to Forks. She knew he'd noticed, or at least she was sure he had, he seemed to notice everything she did, but that wasn't saying much, she noticed nearly every little thing he did, it was just one of those connections.

Nessie was only 20 years old, but she only looked 18, that in itself doesn't sound to bad, but add to the fact that she'd looked 18 since she was about 7 and you know that this girl wasn't normal. She was hybrid; half human, half vampire, it was surprisingly something she'd taken to very easily. But to imagine that her boyfriend, no; fiance was a werewolf just made things seem even more unreal. Nessie had a very large brain capacity and so being able to think about more than one thing at a time came very easily to her, but when it came to Jacob and the wedding it seemed that that was all that filled her head at the moment. Shed had visions of how she wanted her wedding to look since Jacob had proposed, and they'd only made it official when she was actually 18 and thus the planning had started.

She felt that smile playing her lips at his reply, she was the same, no matter what she was thinking about Jacob was always on her mind. She could never get him out of her mind and she didn't want to, he was like a drug to her. She was addicted to him, when she wasn't with him she was thinking about him and wanted to be with him and when she was with him all she wanted was to be close to him and touching him. It was clear to everyone that knew Nessie that she couldn't live with out Jacob and to be honest she didn't plan to live without him. The thought had crossed her mind once and she'd pushed it away instantly, she hadn't liked the idea and from then on the decision had been made that if anything were to happen to Jacob she would follow shortly after.

Nessie couldn't help but smile as she watched Jake as he recalled how the patrol had went, she knew how happy he was to be back. She alone knew how much he had missed La Push, but he'd refused to go back, said he was staying with her. So it had been her idea that every so often she and Jacob would go to La Push to visit old friends, she loved the look he got on his face whenever they had returned. Seeing him happy was all Nessie needed to be happy, being around him made her happy, but knowing he was happy only made her happier. "Someone's happy to be home"

[/color] she said softly, and when she said home she meant it, because to her La Push was just as much her home as it was his and here, here she didn't have to hide who or what she was, because the people around here all knew, the legands, everything; it was all true.

She snuggled a little closer to him, finally tearing her eyes away from his face to rest on the veiw before them. La Push was her home, even if she hadn't been born here, she felt special that because of her the treaty had been changed between the La Push tribe and the Cullen's. Nessie was glad that they had changed the treaty so she could come on their land, she knew how it would break Jacob's heart if they couldn't live in La Push. "I went to see Claire earlier. She agreed to be my maid of honour, actually she was really excited about it"[/color] she said smiling, Claire and her had become during the visits to La Push and Nessie was glad to have a friend like Claire, someone (a human someone) who knew what she was and didn't care.[/center][/size]

[Jacob Black]

And so it began, the wedding talk. He knew it was only a matter of time before his happiness just sitting on the edge of a cliff with the girl he loved was going to turn from that to the idea of a 'perfect wedding.' He was never really fond of weddings, and in fact was completely against it for most of those some twenty odd years, saying he could never ever allow himself to be related to the Cullen's via marriage, the idea of being related to Bella Cullen was too strange, let alone being related to Edward Cullen, that was worse.

Though since Nessie had gotten older, and proclaimed her love to him his mind sort of shifted paths and started reconsidered that closed door that was marriage- and by the time she was fifteen- he had proposed, and she said yes. Though trying not to be creeper like they agreed that no one other than Bella would know until Renesmee was officially eighteen, of course- Edward found out through mind reading techniques that Jake sometimes wished he did not have, and nearly threatened to kill Jake right there on the spot. The two immortals have been trying to resolve their issues between each other since and for the most part have gotten on not bad- Edward from what Jake could see was slowly starting to accept the idea of imprinting, and that Jake was going to marry his daughter rather than his wife like Jake had planned on so many years ago.

"So Claire's going to be the Maid of Honour." He said simply restating her sentence not really sure what else there was to add to it. Claire was a nice girl, he had known her since she was basically born, Quil used to babysit her, much like Jake did with Reneesmee. He could remember the times that he used to hound Quil, calling him weird and stuff for falling for a kid who couldn't even talk yet. He basically ate his words when Nessie came into his life, and wouldn’t trade her for the world.

"Yeah I don't know what to do about a best man, probably just gonna have two." He said with a shrug, he didn't really like talking about the wedding stuff, he didn't really care much about it. All that mattered to him was the fine details like- her saying 'I do' and signing the paperwork- that’s when it was a wedding to him. She was legally his, she could be a Black, not a Cullen. To him he didn't need the fancy tux or the big drawn out ceremony, or the crowd of people watching them kiss. It was all just to make the brides day pretty much. It was a celebration no doubt about that, but he didn’t need it. All he needed was his girl for the rest of eternity and he would be as happy as ever.

"Why wouldn't I be happy? We are home." The signature smile came flowing back to his lips quickly before leaning into her placing his rather warm lips to her semi cold ones for a kiss.

[Renesmee Cullen]

Nessie had never been the same as other little girls, in fact that in itself was an understatement; she'd grown quickly, sure she'd experienced a childhood but her whole childhood had been centered around learning everything she could, through her own free will. She'd wanted to learn, it was just how her brain was, it was developing quickly and so she'd wanted to fill it with all the knowledge available to her. There was however, one thing that Nessie had in common with nearly every other little girl in the world. Since she was younger (physically about a year old) she'd had this vision of what her wedding would look like and to be honest it had never really changed much. Since admitting her love for Jacob and hear he felt the same that vision seemed to solidify even more, he'd sparked it up all over again.

When Jake had proposed it had shocked Nessie, part of her had been expecting it but still when it happened. To this day her parents reactions still amused her; her mother had hugged her but said flat out that she was to young, which was when Nessie had explained that they weren't even going to make the engagement official till she was 18 and that they were only telling Bella because it was something like that that Nessie couldn't bare to hide from her mother. Edward had found out through his 'gift' she still doesn't know who exactly he heard thinking about it and she hasn't questioned it. But upon finding out she watched her father's reaction as he threatened to kill Jacob, Nessie had tried reasoning with him but he wouldn't listened and it wasn't untill Bella stepped in and asked if Edward wanted to be the reason for breaking their little girls hearts. It was then that they'd managed to explain to Edward they the engagement wasn't going to be announced till she was 18.

Nessie was excited that Claire had accepted when she'd asked her to be maid of honour, the pair had been best friends for a long time, due to all those trips to La Push. Claire was human and it was for that reason that Nessie thought it was so important that she was asked to be maid of honour. She didn't like to think of Claire being human because it made her sad to think of her best friend eventually growing old and dying and so she didn't dwell on it.

Nessie's gaze was completely on the ocean as she listened to Jacob speak and she couldn't but let out a rather saddened sigh. She lifted her gaze from the sight before her and looked at Jacob "Jake, I know this wedding doesn't mean a whole lot to you. The finer details and such are all that really matter to you, I know that. But I've been dreaming of this since I was like a year old, and since I was like 10 I've pictured you standing at the alter waiting for me. Could you please humour me? Act a little more excited?" Her eyes were a little sad as she looked at him, this really did mean a lot to her. It was rare that she found something that she disagreed with when it came to Jake, they seemed to have one of those rather perfect relationships. But this was something that she had to speak up about, it didn't anger her no, it made her sad and perhaps that was worse.

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((sorry for shortness))

[Jacob Black]

He pulled himself back after kissing her, realising that it wasn't going to make things any better. Renesmee started on about how she could tell Jake wasn't too involved with the idea of the whole wedding. Honestly she was right, and he hated that she could see it. He loved the idea of being married to her and being married, he just hated the whole big deal of the wedding.

"Nessie, of course this wedding means a lot to me. Don't ever think that it doesn't. I'm a guy though; you have to remember I'm not that into the whole making it look good thing, that’s your deal. I'm just showing up and committing to the deal. "He let out a small chuckle.

He listened as she asked for him to be more excited, to humour her about it, and if he could he would, he honestly had been trying! Hey he was actually talking about it that was a good start Jake thought! "You were the only one I pictured marrying, so I know what you mean Nessie. Trust me, I am trying. If it makes you happier I can jump up and down and scream- Oh My God I can't believe we are getting married!" He said trying to imitate a higher pitched excited voice when stating the last half of the sentence.

He released his hand from hers and placed his arm around her waist pulling her close. "I love you Renesmee, that won't ever change."

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[Renesmee Cullen]

Renesmee was not really all that impressed with Jakes attitude, one could tell just by looking at her in that instance, she looked like her mother when Bella was mad. But then Jake started talking, explaining that he was a guy, and that things were only natural as to the way he was acting. And that is when she let out a rather perturbed sigh.

Boys were always like that, not just about weddings, but about everything that didn't involve cars or sex, or at least that is how it seemed to her. She loved Jake with all her heart and wanted nothing more than to have him enjoy the wedding process as much as she did. He better like the end result of it though, after all that’s where the men have most of the fun, at the party. But she wasn't going to let him off the hook so easily.

Right as she was about to push forward more for some clear emotion from the wolf her beat her to it. He told her of his thoughts about who he would marry and that he didn't picture anyone but her. It actually made her blush, why she didn't really know she had know it all along, but perhaps just hearing him say it some how struck a cord with her.

As he pulled her close she sighed again, this time more content. That’s when he started goofing around, being the typical Jacob. "No, I don't expect that Jake. It would be nice if you actually seemed to care once and a while though. I know you don't really care for the details, but try and seem interested, after all it is our future. Yes it's just one day out of our lives, but it is our first wedding, the only one we probably will have certain people at. That's why it is important to me Jake. Please respect that." She tried to keep her voice casual and calm though she trying to ensure that he understood the reason why she was so uptight about it. Also, she was just a girl and was excited about her wedding day… but that didn't seem to register with him.

She leaned her head into his chest as she was pulled closer to him, and then he spoke those reassuring words all to clearly and a smile took hold of her lips. "I love you too Jacob. For eternity." She turned to look at her fiancée, smile still in place as she kissed his warm lips once more, a quick kiss, but none the less a kiss. He was everything to her and more.

[Jacob Black]

He smiled as she started on again about her expectations, but it really sunk in with him when she spoke of people not being there for the second one… When he thought about it, it was probably true, Sam was going to die with Emily, and Jared with Kim, and he hated to think it, but Quil with Claire. He was going to loose his brothers one day, and his best friend just like Nessie would loose hers.

"Ness, I'm sorry. I'll try to be more happy about it." He wasn't really sure if happy was the right word, but now all he wanted to do was try and forget about his family dying…. That was not something he wanted to see anytime soon.

"Come on, lets go home." He said with a sigh trying not to think about what she just said.

((sorry, I think it’s a bout time to end the thread.. cant think of any other way to do it ))